"I have been a common child since my childhood, neither fat, nor skinny, with normal appetite and the same liveliness and light-heartedness as all children have. I was the most active girl at school, an excellent student, smart and beautiful; in general I maintained my reputation as «a star». Since my early childhood I visited a sports group, then I went to music school, drawing school, visited various hobby groups…

"I am looking at a huge tureen where reddish stains of drops of borsch are drying out…I am looking around the kitchen:  piles of plates and dishes, crumbs, grease stains, sticky stains of coca-cola.  And only on seeing it, it sinks in: Surprised home hosts used to say in «Three bears» fairy-tale: «Who was there and ate from my dish?» Who was there and turned my licked-clean kitchenette upside down? Could it have been me myself?

Bulimia… There was a time when I had no slightest idea of WHAT it is. There was a period after that when I couldn't think that it is both my way of life and my problem. Yet what I was even more incapable of understanding is how big is the number of girls and women of different age, income and education all over the world who suffer from the very same thing as me. It has no mercy for anyone.
Bulimia is a disorder of eating behaviour. It is the beginning of almost all definitions for this phenomenon in scientific and medical literature that I have come across. Yet none of them was sufficiently clear for me to form a complete picture of what it is going on with me, and what's more important — how do I get rid of it, or can I?
How did it all begin?